It’s times like this where I wish you were here. It’s confusing and weird since you never did anything right, but you were such a great comfort level for me, and you always tried to make me feel safe even though you scared me the rest of the time. I regret not coming to see you more, scared of where you may be or if you’d even care or be proud of me, but I just wanted to remind you that you were great, and I’m sorry nobody ever told you that. You’re the cause of all of my goals and inspirations, and I want you to know that you are impactful, whether it seems like it or not. I can’t really forgive you for all of the things you’ve done to me, but I really want to, and it’s something i talk to the Lord with every single day. I just want you to be proud of me. Please. I miss you.