I had an episode the other day. It was probably the worst I’ve had in a while.
During my episode, I lashed out at Mom and Jason. In. Public. How embarrassing is that? I lost self control and composure, and I doubted His works in my life. Hell, I still don’t understand any of it.
I think I only understand what I want to understand. And that’s the worst.
I feel weak. And discouraged. And helpless. I’ve begun to hate every single thing about myself to the point where I can’t find a single good thing.
I don’t feel as if I belong anymore, and I feel as if my whole life is a joke.
I need to get outta here.